Your Egypt

[moll]

Your turn, Roughshod :smt096

What brought you to YE, I mean how did you end up posting here? was it bcs you've got a thing about Egypt, or did you just kind of come across this place accidentally?

What's the best thing about living in SA, and the worst?

[moll]

Hurry up, you've got 10 minutes :twisted: I'm limiting myself to an hour a night posting crap.......

[kamar]

Do you know Moll ? today I was at work and I had 5 minutes for to open the computer and to come here and really I was thinking the same question :

- Rough, what brough you on YE ?

Lol Moll, you start to scare me :lol: we had the same though :lol:

[moll]

kamar wrote: Do you know Moll ? today I was at work and I had 5 minutes for to open the computer and to come here and really I was thinking the same question :

- Rough, what brough you on YE ?

Lol Moll, you start to scare me :lol: we had the same though :lol:

:shock: :shock: :shock:

I have telepathic abilities, kamar 8) I read your mind, that's why I posted the question 8)

Anyway, what's the bloody answer :twisted:

[Eastern girl]

any answer?!

ok another question: what is in ur life that u hate and what u like most? :roll:

[RoughShod]

I made a lengthy reply...then pressed a combination of keys I know not what, and my first hand reply dissappearred into the ether never to be seen again.

So went off to buy some ciggerrettes, stopped over at a bar for a beer, and wondered how I would be able to answer with any first hand authenticity with a second hand reply. I hate to retry something I did before, so now will have to think of a different way to answer

Well..I used to chat often on zanet(South African Irc chat), the people were great, but after time, it was like being married to a woman that had become tired of being a sex goddess. The channel began to sink in the obscurity of the same old same old. I began to press people beyond what they found acceptable, to try to shift into a new paradighm. I found that they became defensive, they started protecting who they thought they were instead of growing beyond who they were.

I at that time was a very forgiving and understanding type of person, always able to notice who was having a bad hair day, and who of those that were offensive, were just plain morons, and I became known by some as Dr Phil.

However, I continued to push boundaries, and found those that at first had liked me, were starting to make excuses for my behaviour, and those that I had crushed, they rejoiced thinking they at last would see the end of me.

It was about this time that Dreamcatcher(who I met in real life through the Zanet meduim) told me she had found a great place where she thought I would be at home in. It was the 'Your Egypt forum". Here I met people like Monica, The Egyptian, Crash boom bang and many others that seemed to believe in life and live it as they saw fit, not the way acceptable behaviour and limited vision of life exspected them to

It seeemed like real people were here, understanding the weaknesses of others and themselves. It was a romantic period to start off with. In a way that it was new and fresh...but after time it too faded, yet....I still come here, because the people here are decent, they forgive the odd tresspass. They make a few themselves on the odd occasion, but I think what really intrigues me, is that nobody here think that they have life 'sussed'(understood), we all know our weaknesses and limitations, and even when we bring up these weaknesses, we seem able to forgive and also at times for our own weaknesses, attempt to achieve better.

The people here are decent people that are down to earth and often very helpfull towards others that need help and a sense of being cared for.

[moll]

Okey dokey, Rough, next questions

1 what's a paradighm :shock:

2 Don't you feel that you are any longer a 'very forgiving and understanding' type of person, and if not, what changed you?

3 Are you still in touch with dreamcatcher, and do you know why she doesn't post here any more? she used to post on another board I belong to, then she just disappeared completely :(

[RoughShod]

A paradighm is a perception of what one stands for and how one will behave under any given circumstance. It is a philosophy of how to interpret ones circumstances and how best to regulate oneself to adapt to ones circumstances.

Your second question Moll, has to be answered from a point of view of transition, where what I believed to be true before...may still be true, but with a lot of honesty involved now rather than just set ideas possibly brainwashed into me from my youth. In order to get out of a mindset one has been comfortable with for most one's young life, because the mindset is too much like a closed circuit television, only reflecting what one is familiar with...one has to cut it out like a cancer when one realizes that perhaps one has become too narrow minded and unloving of anything else other than what directly affects one's life. To cut out a cancer involves the death of healthy tissue too, and I hope that I can be the same kind of person I was before but this time one that is able to live loving all about me and recover from the cancer, but I might also succumb to it.

Dreamcatcher had issues with some people here and possibly had a 9/11 perspective on their motives. However, this is speculation only..Dreamcatcher would not expect me to answer your question outright Moll, and perhaps I have answered too much already.

Eastern girl, What I hate in my life most is the way I used to go around tilling the soil, planting seeds, waiting for the rain to make them grow, watching the sun come up then go down, and my fields coming to life....but my life spiritually was so empty. What I love about my life now???.....well, that although it seems I have now lost the ability to just sit around watvhing my fields come to life, I think or hope anyway, that the seed I planted in my ficticious fields, has now rather been planted in me, and now I expectantly wait for my spiritual self to flourish, and benefit others.

[Eastern girl]

RoughShod wrote:
Eastern girl, What I hate in my life most is the way I used to go around tilling the soil, planting seeds, waiting for the rain to make them grow, watching the sun come up then go down, and my fields coming to life....but my life spiritually was so empty. What I love about my life now???.....well, that although it seems I have now lost the ability to just sit around watvhing my fields come to life, I think or hope anyway, that the seed I planted in my ficticious fields, has now rather been planted in me, and now I expectantly wait for my spiritual self to flourish, and benefit others.

That's a nice answer, :roll:

Sometimes i find u very wise and sometimes i just cannot read ur posts :? ...in ur real life which one you are? I mean is this your real personality writing here or just trying to be sarcastic or frank....are you dealing with people easier in cyber world or in real life?

[Katrina]

I miss Dreamcatcher. 8) If you talk to her, please, say hello to her, Rough.

What is your fondest memory, Rough?

[RoughShod]

EasternGurl,The confusion you express at my answers perhaps is the same confusion I have about who I am. but I can give you a frank clean cut answer that will help you explaIN in your own mind my confusion, though not necessary be a true explanantion of who you perceive me to be. In real ife I am a quiet person, that outwardly has ordered views(though not very world encompassing ones, just normal views), and in cyber space, I am under the influence of drink.

Two seperate lives. One to keep the money coming in and where I practice fair play, and one to experiment with who I am and maybe take liberties that I should not really do..


Katrina, I think my fondest memory was watching a video of when I was still married. my back was towards the camera and I was on my folks smallholding walking to the edge of the parkway which at the edge dropped off a metre to continue downhill towards some fig trees. It was at this moment that my youngest daughter who was behind me ran up to me and clutched my hand...on my beckoning though....and for some reason, us walking hand in hand towards that edge...well it just seemed symbolic, and special...........even though it was just a normal movie.